Is This What It Feels Like?

A few months ago when I decided to pursue photography completely full time, I was initially terrified with a capital T (I hid it well though).  As I sit at my desk all day and all evening, until 230am most nights, I still wonder to myself..."Is this really worth it?"  "Am I doing the right thing?" "Am I READY?" This is all very scary stuff.

Starting a business is hard...damn hard.  And I'm not even referring to the actual creative aspect.  It's everything else: the advertising, the marketing, the legality of a business, making the switch from satisfying the pallets of yourself, friends and family to being confident enough to exceed the expectation of your clients, people who have no idea who Nicole Andrea is..  Everyone that knows me, knows I am my harshest critic and I agonize over every detail, especially on work done for someone else.

The one thing that quiets my storm of emotion and fear in all this is...get ready...I'M HAPPY!!! :-D I am 100% happy doing something I absolutely love.  This is the stuff people with 9-5's long for...happiness in what they do everyday.  I get up early and stay up late and am tired, just as if I was working a standard J-O-B, but the difference is I truly enjoy what I spend my day doing.  The people who contact me, see my work and they like it.  They really like it!  I am surprised how at peace I am with this new endeavor in my life, but this is the stuff dreams are made of. 

THIS is what happiness feels like!

~Nicole